Another year...*sigh*

Well here it is, October 18th. What does that mean? It means I'm another year older. That's right, it's my birthday. How depressing.

Dear Lordy, I'm 24. Twenty-four years, veinte cuatro años, zwanzig vier, vingt quatre ans, ni-juu-yon sai - however you say it, it means one thing - I'm on my way to becoming an old codger, and that, my friends is one scary thought.

What scares me even more is that within these twenty-four years, I don't feel like I've done ANYTHING profound, or anything that makes me say "you know what? I've done a lot, well done!". Instead, when I just think about what I've done, there's just silence. I'm pretty sure there's tumbleweed running around in my brain when I think too deep.

Actually, there are some things that I'm sort of proud of, but when I look at what the others have done within the same time frame, I cower. It always seems like the grass is always greener on the other side. But is it really?

Perhaps I am being a little austere, perhaps it's the type of people I hang around with? Maybe it's because my friends seem to be such high-hitters, high achievers, big dreamers? Should I try and hold myself up with such high regard? Or should I just go out and find me some new friends who are on the dole, live in a housing commission in Mt. Druitt and think that that's the best it can get? LOL maybe I should, that way it looks like I'll be the high-roller and I'll definitely feel good about that! LOL

LOL in all due seriousness though, life's been good to me. I've a great family, great bunch of mates, I'm in good health, I live right and that's all that matters in my opinion. Sure, it would have been great if I was anchored in a great career by now. But when I think about it, if I had established myself within a career, knowing me I would probably be bitching about work right now on this here blog. So I guess I have to be happy with what I have at the moment, and I am.

I wonder what my 24th year on this world will bring? A career? Love? A trip? Who knows. I'll take each day as it comes, and live each day like it's the last.

To everyone who greeted me today, thank you very much. It's very much appreciated. To those who didn't, may you all fuck off and DIE!!!!!!!!

LOL no just kidding, I love you all.